Myself, Yourself....

credit to the drawer

hemmh~okay, i don't know to start with what....

but, i hear that write is good for...good for vent your emotion, than speak it to someone....

maybe...yup, maybe...

uhh~back to the topic...

This month i think something different is happen, many plan are not going according to expectation, and many chaos because not according to plan ...also i feel somethin different, maybe too many thought or maybe i can just start to stop thinking about that to reduce my stress...

i feel many weird feeling this month...

okay maybe i'll chat somethin....

the problem that i face in this month that also i had never expected are...

1. financial outlay beyond the plan...

2. am i become paranoid than before...

3. i feeling something odd in this month, that can't be eliminated...angry, confused, afraid, happy...?? i don't know, but it's really bother me...

4. i can't sleep well and not sleep on time...

5. and the last, i regret having bought new anime figure... just like always, beacause my star is gemini...hehe~... :D

6. i miss mistress, again...(this is the one that i want to eliminated from my mind...) :(

Okay that's some of my problem, how about ya...??

now, i'm feeling more better now, hope you all can solve your problem soon...

Ciao, see ya...

(i hope i'm not late to pre order new anime figure, hehe~... )

Aikido....

Huph~today is a special day, because in the evening i will do an aikido training...

i can't wait for this...

You know , why i'm join aikido...?? because it's really usefull for self-defence and also because the security reason in indonesia that has high number of criminal happen lately...

so, it's a wise choice to join martial arts...not just for self defence but also for oir healthy...

aikido train our agility, patience, & power that very usefull in the daily life...

Hemmh~okay maybe just that thing i would say...

See ya...

Kimi no Shiranai monogatari...

いつもどおりのある日の事

君は突然立ち上がり言った

「今夜星を見に行こう」

「たまには良いこと言うんだね」

なんてみんなして言って笑った

明かりもない道を

バカみたいにはしゃいで歩いた

抱え込んだ孤独や不安に

押しつぶされないように

真っ暗な世界から見上げた

夜空は星が降るようで

いつからだろう　君の事を

追いかける私がいた

どうかお願い

驚かないで聞いてよ

私のこの想いを

「あれがデネブ、アルタイル、ベガ」

君は指さす夏の大三角

覚えて空を見る

やっと見つけた織姫様

だけどどこだろう彦星様

これじゃひとりぼっち

楽しげなひとつ隣の君

私は何も言えなくて

本当はずっと君の事を

どこかでわかっていた

見つかったって

届きはしない

だめだよ　泣かないで

そう言い聞かせた

強がる私は臆病で

興味がないようなふりをしてた

だけど

胸を刺す痛みは増してく

ああそうか　好きになるって

こういう事なんだね

どうしたい?　言ってごらん

心の声がする

君の隣がいい

真実は残酷だ

言わなかった

言えなかった

二度と戻れない

あの夏の日

きらめく星

今でも思い出せるよ

笑った顔も

怒った顔も

大好きでした

おかしいよね

わかってたのに

君の知らない

私だけの秘密

夜を越えて

遠い思い出の君が

指をさす

無邪気な声で

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On a day like any other
You suddenly started saying,
“Tonight, let’s go stargazing.”

“You say some good things every now and then”
Everyone said, laughing
On a road without lights,
We merrily walked along like idiots
And held our solitude and insecurity
So that it couldn’t be crushed

From the pitch black world, I looked up
Stars are falling in the night sky

I wonder how long the me
That’s chasing you has been here
Please, try not
To be surprised; listen to
These feelings of mine

“There’re Deneb, Altair, and Vega.”
You point them out in the Summer Triangle
I look at the sky and remember
I finally found Orihime-sama
But I wonder where Hikoboshi-sama is
Well, this is pretty lonely

The cheerful one next to you…
I can’t say anything

The truth is, I somehow
Always understood you
I found out
That I’ll never reach you
That’s no good; stop crying
I should have said something like that

Trying to act strong, I cowardly
I pretended like I had no interests
But
The pain stabbing my chest is growing
Now it makes sense; I’ve fallen in love
I’m sure it’s something like this

What do I want to do? Please say something
My heart’s voice calls out
Being next to you is nice
Reality is cruel

I didn’t say anything
I couldn’t say anything
I can never go back again

That summer day
Sparkling stars
I remember even now
Your laughing face, too
Your annoyed face, too
I loved them
It’s weird
Even though I knew,
It was unknown to you
My only secret
Crossing over the night
The you of my distant memories
Points your finger
With an innocent voice

- Bakemonogatari-

Exploring the Space...

Hai nice to see you all...

tonight i'm run the google earth and explore the space...i just can say that, this is AMAZING...!! ohh~when i see, it's make me want to be an astronauts...

this is some screen shoot from my journey through the deep of the universe...

enjoy...!! ( click the images to see the full picture...)

hei, this is my zodiac...

Thank you for google to make this amazing program, it's really give education & pleasure ( because you can go around the world in just one night/day....)

Panzermaid Ausf. A completed..!!

The first char of A.I.F.P has been done, i just take this char design from the old design that never resumed after 3 years...
Because the coloring is still use 2 level coloring, so, i'm sorry if it's still looks bad...because, i hadn't experience in digital coloring and also i'm still amateur in manga design & drawing...

So, this is the picture...please give comment & critism to my picture, because it's helped to next development of my drawing skill..thank you...

The sketch before coloring...Looks bad... ^^''

This is the picture after coloring...

-Thank you-

A.I.F.P Project & Experiment

A.I.F.P is stand for Anime Illustration For Panzermaid , it's an experimental project to make a panzermaid anime icon...i start this project because i interesting to make a special icon that reflect typical characteristic of the blog/web maker...back in japan, every otaku/ illustrator / web maker/ blog maker that loves anime have their own iconic picture... such as da*nych**, g**d smile c****ny , pi*iv, etc...
also in this project, i hope my skill in drawing will increase because I have not drawn for a long time...so, i forget some technique how to draw manga/anime..heheh~...), plus i want to take a anime/manga drawing course...i hope this plan will be realization this month or maybe next month....

Saa~the last, this is a picture of the A.I.F.P project sketch...(eheheh~because it'sjust an early model sketch, the result maybe will be different from this model...), oh also i need criticsm, opinions and suggestions for this project...

early sketch is made using paint in my laptop, take an hour to make it...(exclude coloring time with PS...)

~Thank you, Arigato gozaimasu~

Visual Novel : Chaos Head

Hora~long not to see ya, now i'll write about my first japanese visual novel, and it is CHAOS;HEAD...
Honestly this is first time i play japanese visual novel, i'm interested to play chaos;head because it's rare to find a visual novel cd in yogyakarta city, all i see when i went to the disc rental and open the japanese game cd catalogue is always full of H-game...like there is no other than H-Game...damnit... (-_-'')
ahh~i'm sorry, anyway the main reason why i playing visual novel is because most of anime in japan is come from the visual novel first, and also there is more stories that not shown in the anime...
ahh~if you do not know if it was a visual novel, Rin will explain it to you..okay rin, it's your turn...

"Hai hai~arigato, goshoujin-sama...saa~i will explain to ya what is visual novel, pay attention,kay...?? ^w^

Visual novel is an interactive fiction game featuring mostly static graphics, usually with anime-style art. As the name might suggest, they resemble mixed-media novels or tableau vivant stage plays... like other visual novels, requires little player interaction as the game is primarily made up of text dialogues. The player only needs to read and click through the text to advance through the game. The text that is displayed on the screen depicts conversations between different characters or their thoughts...But visual novel is different from H-games, kay...?! They're two different thungs and different world... ^^
Okay, that is some explanation about visual novel...now you understand, desho, desho...??
saa~now is goshoujin-sama turn...see ya later... oh this is my last note : DON'T EVER BORROW H-GAME, kay...?? Good... ^^ Saa~ja nee~...."

Okay~thank you for the explanation rin...that's good presentation...*rin blushing, haruhi looks angry*
now i will explain about this game story and the settings...


Chaos;head story is set in 2008 when there is brutal murder case around Shibuya street, and the story is centeren around Takumi Nishijō, a high school student at the private Suimei Academy, and the strange and brutal murders that have recently occurred in the Shibuya area, known as the "New Generation" (ニュージェネレーション) Madness....



one day, when Takumi cross narrow street, Takumi comes across a real life murder scene. Witnessing a mysterious pink-haired girl pinning a man up by stakes in an alleyway, he immediately realizes he is witnessing the very murder detailed in the pictures he received the day before. Convinced Shogun is targeting him and the girl he saw committing the murder is somehow connected to him, Takumi tries to avoid getting involved with other New Generation events. However, as Takumi begins attempting to distance himself from the crime he witnessed, he soon catches interest of the police....

Okay, that is sort of explanation about this visual novel, if you want to know more, play this visual novel....this visual novel is good as it's anime, but the minus of this visual novel is the text....there's no english text and only japanese kanji and hiragana you can see there...
but if you understand about kanji and hiragana, maybe i'll recommended you to try this game...This game is for all-ages... =)

The last, i will added some screen shots from this visual novel...
Thank you for your time to read this post and Have a nice day.... ^^
Arigato gozaimasu~...



Thanks to : Wiki- Tan